26 Dec PAIN & SET BACKS HAPPEN FOR US
PAIN & SET BACKS HAPPEN FOR US when we become blind to what is truly important.
At age 48, I can firmly say that 2019 was the hardest year of my entire life. That is a big statement since many of you know the story of my rock bottom back in 2007.
2007 was horribly painful and I thought that kind of fall, failure and rock bottom was behind me forever. AND so much good in my life happened AFTER I walked through that pain in 2007. I thought I had learned all I had needed. I thought I had it figured out. Wrong.
This year hurt so horribly AND through the pain this time I have actually changed. I have a knowing now that life is one big lesson and we can walk through whatever is handed to us and learn from it with grace.
I know that my lessons and experiences from this year will carry me forward into a powerful future.
I have a word that I reference daily every year that helps to ground me
My word for 2019 was “SURRENDER.” And it became such a critical word that I even tattooed it on my forearm so that I would be reminded of it daily.
2019 challenged me consistently even through this week, and that word has saved me: Unexpected financial challenges that hit me like a ton of bricks, Internal business mistakes from years ago that caught up with me and stung badly, A skin cancer on my face from tanning in my teens and twenties that challenged me deeply to look at why “vanity” was defining me, an injury with back pain that was so intense that it totally changed my beliefs and habits as I knew it. And, too much more to list
And when all I believed to be good about me was taken from me? I realized that I AM ENOUGH.Even without those things that defined me.
I am enough… (and you are too)
I learned what really matters…
My husband and daughter
People
Gratitude
Being of service
Forgiveness
Being present
Grace
Connection
Authenticity
And most importantly… Surrendering.
Lessons (no matter how hard they feel) are sent to us when we become blind to what is important. Thank you GOD for the set back, hardships, and pain you gifted me with this year. I am grateful for what I’ve learned. I’ve surrendered fully.
Goodbye 2019 …. as these last few weeks wrap up this year , I am ready for 2020. BRING IT.
XO,
Natalie Jill
